by Mary E. Lowd
An excerpt from Nexus Nine. If you’d prefer to read in e-book or paperback form, learn more here. Or if you want, skip ahead to the next chapter.
Mazel Rheun watched her old friend, Shep Bataille, from across the command deck of Nexus Nine Base. The calico cat was steeling herself to approach the German Shepherd. Mazel needed to introduce herself, and then she would see the reality in Shep’s eyes — the confusion, the lack of recognition. Shep wouldn’t know her. In fact, Mazel probably shouldn’t think of him as her old friend Shep anymore. Now, he was her commanding officer, Captain Bataille.
A lifetime ago — or maybe only a few months — Mazel had been certain of herself. Himself. She’d been tall, strong, short-furred, and floppy eared. She’d been serious when it was called for and goofy whenever possible. She’d been a captain of her own vessel — his own vessel — in the Tri-Galactic Navy, and she’d come up through the ranks, side by side with Shep. Two dogs, tearing their way through the wild frontiers of the galaxy.
But that had been Shep Bataille and Darius Rheun. Then Darius had died in battle, and the Rheun chip had been passed on to an unremarkable young lieutenant whom Darius had identified in his will. She was Mazel Rheun now — a small calico cat with pale markings who was still figuring herself out. A few months ago, she’d felt right in her own skin. Now she felt short, and her fur was always bothering her, feeling distressingly long and fluffy. It wasn’t long. Except in comparison to a Great Dane’s. In comparison to Darius’.
And whenever she looked in a mirror now, her calico patches looked lopsided. Sure, she’d always had more of the creamsicle orange on her left side, and a touch of pale ash gray on the right, but that had just been how she looked. Normal. Now she knew what it had felt like to look in a mirror and see a different face. Sometimes, she still expected to see her old face — his face — and was surprised to see her own. Compared to Darius’ symmetrical brindling, her calico splotches felt all off kilter. She looked eerie and strange.
A few months ago, Mazel had simply been herself. Now she was herself and Darius, and that meant she was always herself in comparison — in comparison to who she had been before and who she should have been now if Darius hadn’t chosen her to receive his Rheun chip. A gift. An amazing gift. But not one she had asked for, and not one she knew how to handle.
The command deck of Nexus Nine Base was built in concentric rings with the inner rings higher than the outer ones. Between each level, control consoles faced inward, and little stairways, only a couple of steps each, bridged the path upward and inward. The difference in height between the innermost circle — where Captain Bataille was stationed — and the outermost ring where Mazel Rheun stood watching was only about one tall dog’s height, but it created a weird psychological effect, placing the captain on a pedestal. Mazel’s feline muzzle quirked into an amused smile. Shep would love that, she thought sarcastically.
Taking a deep breath, Mazel approached her old friend and new captain. The large German Shepherd was focused on one of the central consoles and didn’t see her approaching. She cleared her throat and said, “So, Reptassan architecture. That’s what brings you out to this corner of the galaxy, right?”
Shep Bataille snorted and straightened up. Damn, he was tall now. Mazel stood as tall as she could herself, triangular ears pointed forward and paws clasped together firmly behind her back, trying not to shake as Shep eyed her.
“You’re one of the new science officers assigned here,” Bataille woofed. “Kind of a snarky first introduction to your superior officer, don’t you think?”
Mazel blinked and said with the sweetest, most innocent voice she could manage, “Don’t you recognize me? Your old friend, Rheun? I mean, I’m not a captain anymore since last we met… but…” She trailed off, unable to keep up the ploy while continuing to speak. Suddenly, the bright light beaming down from the ceiling felt very hot on her fluffy fur. She smiled coyly in a way that her new feline face could; as Darius, she could never have smiled so mysteriously, so knowingly. Jokes had always showed plainly on his canine face.
Bataille stared blankly for a few moments and then sputtered, choking out the words, “Darius??? Big Dog? Oh my heavens, it’s good to see you!”
Mazel laughed, and some of the heat gathering in her fur dissipated. She’d never expected Shep to call her ‘Big Dog’ again. It felt good. Better than she could have imagined. Suddenly, she felt like herself again, even if her body was different in every way than the Rheun parts of her expected and her memories were longer and more complex than Mazel had been alive for.
Shep stepped closer, arms wide and head tilted to the side just enough to show he was asking if he could hug her. Mazel couldn’t bring herself to raise her arms and reach out too, but she looked down, almost shyly, and nodded. Big canine arms wrapped around her, and even though the hug was all wrong — she was too low and too slight, and his arms wrapped all the way around her far too easily — it was also perfectly right, because it was Shep, her best friend, and he was exactly the same. And he had immediately accepted her.
When Shep stood back to look at her, his face broke into an easy-going, wolfy grin. He shook his head. “I should have known you’d show up here. You always were fascinated by the nexus passageways.”
Mazel smiled again, this time wishing her face were better at naive innocence and less suited to mystery. Darius had never explained the connection between his Rheun chip and the nexus passageways to Shep Bataille or any other dog. He’d been a dog himself, and he knew how it would affect them, how it would make them weird around him. He hadn’t wanted that. And he’d had an excellent poker face.
Fortunately, Captain Bataille didn’t know Lieutenant Mazel Rheun well enough yet to see that she was hiding something behind her smile. “Yes,” she said. “The nexus passages are fascinating, and I guess I’ve picked up a few new… I mean, held on to a few old…” Her ears splayed, nonplussed by her own internal disagreement about who she was — Mazel, a fresh young feline officer, or Rheun, an ancient neural chip passed down from one lifeform to the next over centuries of lifetimes. Finally, she settled for saying, “Studying nexus passageways is still one of my hobbies. Passions.”
Shep’s head was tilted again, watching her. “It’s been a bit of a rough transition for you, hasn’t it?”
Mazel straightened her ears and narrowed her eyes. The young cat in her didn’t like Captain Bataille’s unearned familiarity, and the old dog in her didn’t like seeming weak in front of his friend Shep. But she wasn’t a young cat or an old dog. She was both. Shep Bataille had earned the familiarity he was showing through years — decades, really — of friendship, and she was weak. She was a young lieutenant, confused by the process of integrating her two selves, and she should be grateful for her captain and friend showing compassion. “Yes. It’s been rough. I…”
Mazel felt a wall she’d built up around her heart, to protect herself over the last few months, begin cracking. She’d lost all of her old life — both of her old lives, really. Mazel’s family didn’t understand how much she’d changed. And… she’d never even been to see Darius’ family. She couldn’t face meeting with Jebastion. Who was she to him now? She was no longer his father.
In a rush she said, “I barely know who I am sometimes.”
Captain Bataille nodded seriously, slowly, ponderously.
And Mazel had time to doubt her choice to speak so openly and honestly about her weakness with a superior officer. And some of the wall around her heart sealed back up.
“But it doesn’t get in the way of my work. That’s the one thing,” she said, defending herself, “that’s remained constant. I was a scientist before, and I’m a scientist now. Darius wouldn’t have chosen me to inherit the Rheun chip if we weren’t fundamentally compatible.” The words sounded better than they felt. It was a good story. She wasn’t sure how much she believed it. She didn’t know why Darius Rheun had chosen her. They’d barely known each other. Before. She knew him intimately now. Now that he was dead. But the logic of his choice still evaded her.
Shep waved a paw dismissively. “I know, I know,” he said. “Don’t worry. I wasn’t going to relieve you of duty or refer you to the psych officer or anything. I know from your record as Mazel Tabbith — who I had been expecting — as well as your record as Darius Rheun that you’re an officer I can trust with my life. That’s the kind of officer I’ll need in this wreck of a Reptassan space station.”
“Thank you, Captain,” Mazel said.
Now Captain Bataille drew a deep breath. His triangular ears flicked, and his gaze darted around the strangely shaped, overly hierarchical room. Canine, feline, and avian officers worked busily at about half of the stations; the other half of the stations were unmanned, display screens cracked or simply flickering. The elevator on the outer ring that led down to the next deck below command had appeared and disappeared, always empty, several times while they’d been talking. It was clearly malfunctioning.
“As you can see,” Bataille said, “the Reptassans didn’t leave their space station in good condition when they evacuated.”
“You mean when we kicked their scaly asses out,” squawked a nearby bird. Her feathers were blue and shimmery with touches of red and purple at her throat and wingtips. Her tailfeathers fanned out in an array of autumnal hues. She’d been working at the first officer’s station, and she was beautiful in a way that made Mazel’s feline heart skip a beat.
Mazel wasn’t used to working around birds, even in her previous lives. For several lifetimes now, she’d been an officer of the Tri-Galactic Navy, the space fleet of the Tri-Galactic Union, and most of her fellow officers had been other cats and dogs.
The Tri-Galactic Union had been originally founded by the uplifted dogs and cats of Earth, and while other species they’d encountered in the three galaxies had joined the union, none of the most prominent races were avian. So far.
The Aviorans of the planet Avia, the world that the Nexus Nine Base orbited, had opened a petition to join the Tri-Galactic Union. That was why Captain Bataille was here; he was meant to shepherd their leaders through the complicated process. An appropriate role for a German Shepherd like him — he had always been a natural leader with a keen eye for the critical path to follow and a way of gently guiding others towards their own goals.
Mazel felt a sense of safety and security, knowing he would be her captain for the coming time. Maybe she could finally figure out who she was — not just the recent confusion of becoming Mazel Rheun, but perhaps she would finally uncover the origin of her Rheun-self, a quest that had consumed her since before the young cat could remember.
Mazel’s Rheun memories stretched back through time like the view widening around a shuttle craft as it rises higher and higher into the sky. The more she concentrated on them, the farther back she could see. But eventually they darkened in the distance, like space enveloping her when the imagined shuttle craft broke free from the planetary atmosphere of her memories.
But no stars. She couldn’t see the stars. Mazel Rheun couldn’t remember where the Rheun chip had come from. Darius Rheun hadn’t been able to remember either. Nor the bear, Augrula Rheun, who had preceded him. The oldest coherent memories any of them had been able to call to mind were full of tentacles and glass aquarium walls and an oval face framed by long hair. Before that, only fragments.
Rheun didn’t talk about this memory with other cats or dogs. Especially dogs. The dimly remembered oval face would mean too much to them. Far too much. Sometimes, it meant too much to her, and the burden of being one small calico cat who knew so much of her people’s history was overwhelming.
“Excuse me?” the blue-feathered bird squawked. She turned her head almost entirely sideways, looking at Mazel expectantly. She’d been talking, and Mazel hadn’t been listening. She’d been lost in an infinitely deep feeling well of reminiscences.
“I’m sorry,” Mazel said. “I was remembering something. What were you saying?”
The bird looked exasperatedly between Mazel and the captain. As she moved, the light flashing off of her feathers turned them more of a royal purple than their original rich blue. “Was she even listening to me?”
“Go easy on the lieutenant,” Bataille said. “She’s had a long journey to get here.”
The bird’s feathers bristled out around her head, making her larger for a moment before she managed to smooth them back down. Her uniform was a jewel-toned shade of purple, like her feathers had looked in the changing light. The other birds on the command deck all wore similar uniforms. The Tri-Galactic Navy cats and dogs — including Shep and Mazel — wore uniforms in more muted tones of black, brown, and slate gray. Mostly colors that came close to matching each individual officer’s fur, as that made them easier to keep crisp and clean, given the problem of shedding fur.
“As I was saying,” the bird repeated, “I’m Commander Neera Jerysha of Avia. I’m the attaché officer here on… Nexus Nine Base during the transition.”
“Commander Neera is my first officer.” Captain Bataille looked at the bird fondly, and she narrowed her bright-dark eyes at him. “And Lieutenant Rheun is a science officer here to study the nexus. She’s also an old friend of mine.”
Mazel could practically see the words favoritism and corruption pass through the Avioran’s mind. She wanted to explain to the bird that their relationship wasn’t like that — Captain Bataille wasn’t asking for Commander Neera to treat his friends specially; he was simply telling her about the friendship in order to include her in the constellation of his friendships, a form of social consideration he afforded to all of his colleagues. Shep Bataille was a very friendly dog.
“Would you show the lieutenant around?” Bataille asked Neera. “Get her situated? A lot of the science stations onboard are still offline, but I’m sure there’s some work you can get started on. And I’m sure you’re eager to get started!”
“Yes, Captain,” Neera answered with a head bob.
As the Avioran led Mazel away from the raised center of the command deck, down to the outer rings, Bataille called after them, “Come by my quarters later, Big Dog, and we’ll catch up! Maybe grab some dinner on the esplanade.”
“What’s the esplanade?” Mazel asked Neera quietly, trying to sound conspiratorial, but the bird looked at her like she was a blithering fool, ruining the effect.
“I’ll take you there,” Neera said. “After I show you to your station up here. It doesn’t work. Almost nothing does in this Viper’s Perch. Plummeting Reptassans.”
Mazel had read the standard briefing reports on the political situation regarding Nexus Nine Base during her flight into the sector, so she knew the Aviorans and Reptassans had been at war until only a few years ago. The two sentient species had evolved in different star systems, but the reptilian race had expanded out from their home star system and established space stations in several neighboring systems — including one in orbit of Avia — while their bird-like neighbors were still, metaphorically speaking, testing the wings of a brand new, experimental space program.
Perhaps, when you can fly through your own sky under the power of your own wings, there’s less need to build metal mechas to carry you even higher. Or perhaps the reptilian people of Reptiss simply happened to stumble into sentience earlier along the galactic timeline than the bird-like people of Avia and thus had a head start on building space-faring technology.
Regardless, the Aviorans hadn’t stood a chance when the Reptassans decided to invade and occupy their home world. Their only world. The occupation had lasted eighty-some years. Longer than Mazel, Shep, or Neera had been alive.
Mazel knew all of that. She’d read the words. But she hadn’t been prepared for seeing the reality first hand. The dysfunctional, torn-apart space station; the hard-edged anger emanating from Neera and the other Aviorans.
“Here’s your station.” Neera gestured with a ruby-tipped pinion feather at a computer console with a cracked display screen, sparks flying from a bundle of ripped wires, and a toppled chair that was leaking stuffing from its slashed cushions. The bird lowered her head, peering closely at Mazel’s reaction. From the new angle, her sharp beak looked longer and more imposing. “You got a problem with it?”
“No, it’s perfect,” Mazel said.
“Don’t be condescending. It’s junk,” the Avioran retorted, kicking the toppled chair with a talon that looked suspiciously like the right size for creating the slashes in its cushions. “But I have it on good authority — well, insistent authority — that the fuzzy white guy over there who looks a lot like you–” She pointed at a West Highland Terrier with pointy ears and a shaggy beard who was up to his elbows in more ripped wiring underneath a different station. Mazel supposed that from a bird’s perspective, a small white dog and a small calico cat with pale markings would look awfully similar. “–he’s actually some sort of wizard and will have all of this working by Migration’s Eve.” She flapped her wings in an exasperated way. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”
Without looking away from the wires he was working with, the West Highland Terrier barked, “I can hear you doubting over there! And if you’re just going to throw a lot of negative energy around this deck, you can get out of my way! Come back after your migration festival or whatever it is…” A spray of sparks shot from the wires, and the terrier yipped. Then he grumbled to himself about foolhardy, cold-blooded Reptassan engineers.
“The alleged wizard is Lieutenant Walker O’Neill,” Neera said. “You can introduce yourself later. Let’s get out of here.” She led the way to the erratic elevator, and the two of them waited until the malfunctioning device decided, seemingly on a whim and not in response to Neera having summoned it, to come all the way up onto the command deck.
The ride down involved lots of stopping and sudden re-starting. But eventually they made it past all the decks of crew quarters and cargo holds down to the esplanade.
Neera hopped out of the elevator and spread her wings. “Welcome to the esplanade!”
Continue on to Chapter 2…