It’s frustrating that “uselessly wasting time before going to bed” and “gearing up to do a bunch of sudden, surprising writing” can look so much alike while they’re happening.
Any moment now, I could redeem all the time I’ve been wasting by just writing a quick passage. Any moment.
So, if I go to bed, I’m admitting I was just wasting time. If I double down though… I could get some real writing done! Or waste even more time… Hmm…
Also, apparently, I’ve reached the time of night where my writing involves a lot of ellipses… so… there’s that to consider…